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| Saturday, November 8th, 2008 | | 5:28 pm |
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| Tuesday, June 24th, 2008 | | 9:09 am |
GLay
Gawdammit. I just found out Glay is coming to the US, but they are only going to be in CA. This is what makes me want to live THERE, but Really, I want to be living in Kansas City. I know I have not typed anything in here in FOREVER, but let's just say this...I have met the love of my life! He is amazing, sweet, funny, goofy, and nerdy like me! Funny thing is...we actually met on World of Warcraft, and he was the guild master! lol. It has been 2.5 months, but we both know that this is the real thing. this is the first time I can actually be myself in every single way, and he still loves me. ^_^. Here are some pictures of us: 
leaving after first meeting. It was sad.
Our first real date in Pheonix, Az airport. June 15, 2008
When he flew down to be with me on my birthday. ^_^
I love this one. We were on the bus, heading to the rehearsal for his brother's wedding. He caught the garter btw. lol. ^_^
ON July 5th, I will be flying there to be with him for six weeks! ^_^ I cannot wait. Why? Because originally we were planning to move in with each other at this time, but instead I decided we should wait until December, which is when I finally graduate. Then I will be moving. It is a great feeling to know when you have finally found HOME. It is as if you have found pure joy...not the kind where you get excited real quick, because that always dies down...but the kind that has you always feeling warm. Almost like a warm glow. ^_^ Well I will type more about it later. I have to get ready to go to school!
Current Mood:  loved
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| Thursday, March 6th, 2008 | | 1:38 pm |
oh my goodness. LIfe is such a mess. I really do hate money right now. I am doing everything I can to work enough, do enough homework and do it well, and then...trying my best to stay sane. It doesn't look like I have much time for the third one right now, but oh well. We will see how that turns out. for the next 3-4 weeks I am going to do my best to not have a life and just concentrate on doing everything I can to get stuff done. *sigh* I might be stressed now, but maybe this will help if I delete the social life for a while. Like I have had one though....but that sucks because this guy at work I have had my eye on for about a month, has told others he is going to ask me out for a drink. eh... I miss so many people. Especially those of you who I have not been able to see in SOOOO long. Hopefully sometime that will change. I know I barely come on here at all, but I hope everyone's life is going far more smoothly than mine is. |
| Tuesday, March 4th, 2008 | | 8:12 am |
  taken yesterday. more to come! |
| Tuesday, January 15th, 2008 | | 6:38 pm |
So I have lost five pounds, had a blast this weekend, and I am beginning my new job at work next week. For those of you who do not know, I am going to be a new bridal consultant at Bed Bath And beyond!!! ^_^ No more having to deal with the registers. So things are going pretty well. I finally know what I want, and soon I shall have it. It might be a few months, but I am going to be so happy!!!! I have waited soooo long for it. I have ben talking to someone I used to know a year ago, and we have finally began to talk again. I knew we could be friends again. We are too much alike not to be. I am just glad that was possible. my goal for the next two months: to lost 15 pounds. I WILL DO IT!!! ^_^ |
| Sunday, January 6th, 2008 | | 10:39 am |
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| 9:13 am |
so...I am just sitting here, about to get ready for work, looking up what I am going to buy with this ebay gift card. I was going to buy something for someone else, but that idea has passed due to recent actions and events. I have decided to buy an alexandrite ring. I have always wanted one, but never was able to. It is a green color and changes to red or purple in flourescent/candle light. How cool is that. It is very rare, so I thought I would try to get one while I can.  Isn't it beautiful??? Well...we will see if I can actually get this one ring or not. Alright. I am now gone to walk the dog and get ready for work! 4 more weeks or 4 more months! Either way, it is going to be the most joyous times of my life. ^_^ |
| Wednesday, January 2nd, 2008 | | 11:17 am |
restlessness
Oh man. I am really not sure what to write here except confusion is a big part of my life. What to do, how to do it, and everything else. I don't know what to say anymore and don't know how to deal with anything right now. I am just waiting for my real dream to come true, and I can't wait!! What is that you say? Well I have mentioned it before. Finally have the love of my life come to me and live ever after. Yeah I know...some dream huh? But what you don't understand is how happy it will be to finally belong, share my life, and just to be joyous in everything that happens from here on. It will be a while before I get out of here, unfortunately. Money is a big hold back for me, but I am going to try to get my artwork going. I HAVE to put my foot down and force myself to do paintings that are not my style. I have to start selling. Spent the past two days with Derrian and TV, who I love. I miss my goof partners. I had lost who I was for a while, and now I have been redeemed. Thank God. I became ill on New Years (of course) and was unable to go out with them. I was so upset. But I guess I can look at the bright side of it...did not have to spend any money, and I didn't drink (which I am giving up btw). For the next month I am going cold turkey. I am killing myself drinking the way I do, so it has got to stop. |
| 11:16 am |
What Do You Have To Say? - My Biggest Dream
My biggest dream is to have a showing of my artwork anywhere, especially New York. I expect to start working hard on some paintings real soon when I finally get moved out of my apt. *sadness* |
| Saturday, December 15th, 2007 | | 7:18 pm |
So today was nice. Mostly everyone was cheerful today, even though it was busy as hell. After work I went to the mall, where everyone had decided to go as well. It was fun though. I have not been able to shop in SOOOOO long. I love shopping for other people. ^_^ It makes me so happy to think that I might actually find someone that will make them happy for a moment. I saw some stuff I thought was cute for myelf, but I can't afford stuff I don't need. I just don't want to be alone this Christmas. I always am this time of year, and I'm about sick of it. hopefully in the next 5 years I will have a family of at least one other. LOL. That is so wierd to think about. Finally being grown. haha. So...atm I have a level 24 blood elf hunter...Astarjia...  I have a black cat as well, but I do not have a picture of him yet. Ah...I love the game. |
| Thursday, December 13th, 2007 | | 6:43 am |
So today is a new day and I have to go to work and deal with more stupid people. I pray that it is slow so I can just relax. I need it. I want to drive to the beach and just sit there one day, and then take a day or two to build a huge sculpture. AHHhh...that would be nice. I hope it snows, just for that reason. Well...gots to go get ready. Ja ne. |
| Monday, December 3rd, 2007 | | 3:28 pm |
Let me just tell you how much I HATE people who cause harm to animals. So much so, that if I saw it happening, and I had a weapon near or on me, I would NOT hesitate to beat the pulp out of them or do exactly to them as what they have done to that animal. I could take my time, and still not feel bad. If I ever knew of ANYONE hurting a child, or sexually abusing them...I would NOT think twice before causing them pain beyond imagining or worse. People like that should not be alive. Instead of feeling bad about taking a so called life, I would be happy I rid the world of such filth. And you want to know another thing...All these scientists are saying "well animals don't feel anything, they don't have a soul"...oh really....Apparently these people are DEAF because they can't hear the animal's cries when they are in pain!!! They should do an experiment and gag these idiots and test that theory. If you can't speak words to let others know you are in pain, then you must not have a soul....yeah...and you guys are suppose to be the smart ones. So how you like me now? |
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| Thursday, November 29th, 2007 | | 8:35 pm |
Oh how the sweet lyrics of the sirens stir my blood. A frenzy of wonders in my mind come to life and dreams flash before my eyes. Notes from the sea turn blue in my eyes and aLL I can see is what is wished of me. I surrender to the unknown and follow the sounds that mystify my conscioussness. |
| Friday, September 14th, 2007 | | 2:30 pm |
Strange world and consciousness...
Have you ever just sat down, not talking at all, and just look at those who you can actually see? Have you ever watched these people, their expressions and tones just showing their happiness, grief, or blinding madness? Have you ever wondered if you actually just went up to some of these people and just started talking to them...if they would actually talk back, if you could somehow help them in some aspect of their life or maybe...if they could help you in some crazy aspect of yours? After watching just these people you see before your eyes, have you ever wondered how many others there are you could ask the same question about? How many others there are at that very moment wondering the very same thing? How can it be that all of us are doing the same thing in life....trying to survive, trying to find companionship in others, trying to achieve a goal which we have dreamed of when we were but kids...yet only groups of us seem to follow paths that keep such a small parcel of us together? how can it be that we find different personalites so disgusting that we don't even try to initiate conversations with new people who might just be those we have longed to have a closeness with? Is it that we are scared, just like little kids, that along the way the contact will be strained? It's funny to think about this way, because everything that has a beginning has an end. The thing to this is, as humans, we yearn to learn new things, and what better way than this. If you are accepted, you learn that there is a reward to such approach, and in my understanding even being rejected will give you a valuable reward...a lesson. I have yet to find the answer to why even I cannot approach such people I wish to. Maybe it is because of my past, but just as it is stated...that is the past. I should be leaning toward the future and not let such repercussions stop me from improving the person I am now. If you have any say on this subject...please feel free.... Current Mood:  quixotic |
| Sunday, August 26th, 2007 | | 9:58 am |
My Personality | | Neuroticism | | Extraversion | | Openness To Experience | | Agreeableness | | Conscientiousness | |
| You are sociable, outgoing, energetic, and lively. You prefer to be around people much of the time. You are generally calm and composed, reacting moderately well to situations that most people would describe as stressful. A desire for tradition does not prevent you from trying new things. Your thinking is neither simple nor complex. To others you appear to be a well-educated person but not an intellectual. You have a strong interest in others' needs and well-being. You are pleasant, sympathetic, and cooperative. You are reasonably reliable, organized, and self-controlled.
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| Sunday, August 12th, 2007 | | 8:25 am |
damn. so this next week...purely dedicated to work and getting my school schedule fixed. I talked to the head of the dept. about a week and a half ago....so they would give me permission to get into these two classes I HAVE to have to graduate. Well, she tells me that the lady who does this will not be back until the next Monday (this past Monday), so she will have them do it so I will be in the classes. I check on this on Wednesday and it has still not been taken care of. This infuriates me because now one of the classes is full and the other I still have not recieved permission to enter. The payment is due this Monday...so WHAT THE HELL! I have not gotten thoroughly frustrated with people in a while, and I really do not want to bring out that controlling, bitchy side of me, but I want to graduate, and these people are damn sure not going to be the cause of me not succeeding. If they did not want to help people succeed, then they shouldn't have taken the job in the first place. grrr... ANYWAYS. Working my ass off this next two weeks, as I said, but you know what...I really like the place where I work. The people I work with just get me, and they are goofballs as well. ^_^ We really do have a great team there. So two days ago I was checking this lady out, and she says to me," You have the most beautiful eyes. Are you of Scandinavian descent by chance?" I tell her no, and the exact descent(s) I am, and she says," No wonder. You are just so pretty!" o^_^o I thought I was going to blush...I just don't hear that from people face to face, and it is absolutely flattering. Then today I was helping this lady out, towards the end of store hours...and when I was done handling the transaction she says," I just love your smile." ^_^ I love getting compliments from strangers....I just never expected to get them and it throws me back for a second!!! |
| Tuesday, August 7th, 2007 | | 1:40 am |
Sacred View
Rocky paths have been strewn across everyone's life. Mine have seen many but the wheels still roll. From distant memory, the scene was murky, dark, and cold. Silence was all my voice could give me as protection from souls who tried to break me. A flower blossomed and the view became clear. One is their own, and to themselves they must believe and hold sacred. Surroundings turned bright and the sun gently kissed the once forgotten mind. Color returned and silence....silenced itself. Never shall others be able to maim a heart that has learned truth. Current Mood:  creative |
| 1:39 am |
Question and Answer TAKE THIS SURVEY!
Take this survey
My 'ex' is: not talking I am listening to: the night Maybe I should quit: drinking I love: my one and only My bestfriend: Chris and Shanah I don't understand: how people who can see quite clearly are blind to the most obvious things I last ate: a spicy chicken burrito The meaning of my display name is: I love the moon Love is: patient, kind, forgiving, always loving Somewhere: some way, somehow I will always: strive to make things better for others Love seems to be: hard, but it is none the less one of the highest forms of emotion and dispair I never ever want to lose:My mobile phone is: respect, awesome When I woke up this morning:I get annoyed at: I didn't want to wake up, people who talk behind others backs Parties: oh yes please My pet: is so spoiled Kissing: love it Today I:I wish: cleaned, I could talk to that one person I really want: one thing....and it is coming
What would you rather be called?
Babe or baby: baby Sweetie or Honey: honey Darling or Hun: hun Cutie or Beautiful: beautiful
PRESENTLY
is your hair wet? no is your cell phone right by you? no do you miss someone? yes are you wearing chap stick? no are you tired?: yes and no are you excited? yes are you watching tv? no are you wearing pajamas? no
HAVE YOU
done anything you regret? yes recently lied? no ever stuck gum under a desk? no ever kicked someone? yes ever tripped over your own feet? yes
TODAY
have you cursed? yes have you yelled at someone? yes have you gotten mad at someone? yes
RANDOM
is there a person who is on your mind right now? YES do you have any siblings? yes do you want children? eventually do you smile often? YES do you wish on stars? YES do you untie your shoes every time you take them off? no when did you last cry? 3 days ago do you like your handwriting? yes and no are your toenails painted? no are you a friendly person? yes who's bed did you sleep in last night? none...slept on the couch what size ring do you wear? don't know what color shirt are you wearing? blue do you have any pets? yes what were you doing at 7pm yesterday? drinking a glass of whiskey and cooking
Finish it
I can't wait until: that very special day Tom is: Jerry's enemy This survey is: blah MySpaceBulletins.com is: ... CLICK HERE TO TAKE THIS SURVEY!More surveys @ MySpaceBulletins.com |
| Monday, July 30th, 2007 | | 12:26 pm |
Like The Breeze Before A Storm
So many dreams that I have withheld for so many, I am blinded by all I have seen in the conscious and unconsciousness. The only way I am able to follow through this path is by listening and touch. Within the shallow darkness I keep reaching for a hand that is trying to find me, but elusive ways are in control. Soon, though, the light shall spread forth, and true life shall enter once again upon this spirit. Selfish as it may be, there is only one which I am capable of caring for at the present state, and only they are able to help me achieve a higher level of existence. I feel the presence as one is touched by the breeze before a storm: It is strong and sweet, even though it eludes the eyes, and shall bring an even stronger meaning. |
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